“Rest! oh my weary soul. Rest easy and lighten the load. Why do we toil and work so hard, work our fingers to the bone? All the wealth we accumulate will slip away, fades of grey, can’t take it to the grave. What is most important to you is what you put your hands too. Do you say, I wish we could… but live in the bondage of your fear? Rise up, let go, faith doesn’t come easy when you only trust in yourself. Rise up, let go and Rest! oh my weary soul.” ~Jana Holland
Learning to live on less has been a big part of our journey. It has taken the daily release of expectations and mourning the loss of things we once though important. We are learning to re-categorize a “need” from a “want.” When we step back and realize that we are all healthy and we have just enough to fill our gas tank and have a bit to eat, we stop and think. Wow! We have just what we need.
Then there is the “want” category. Those are the things that we, individually and corporately, express a desire for, offer them up as requests and are slowly learning to let them go. This is where faith comes in. It’s a working out of the “genie in the bottle” vs. a real trust in a faithful God and that all will come that is meant to come. This is a hard process to surrender to and revels the reality of our heart condition. For when we offer a request as a demand (genie in the bottle approach) we find that our minds are consumed with the “getting” no matter what the cost. It’s this working out in the heart that brings to mind Psalm 37
3 Trust in the Lord and do good;
dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
4 Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
5 Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in him and he will do this:
6 He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn,
your vindication like the noonday sun.
Here are a few examples of this working out practically on our journey…
1. This was our first year homeschooling and our daughter’s freshman year. That’s a big deal and she really wanted to go to a brick and mortar school. She wanted to experience being “on campus” and forging those lifelong friendships. There were many conversations about her desires, moments of struggle and tears, fear of the unknown and a unsuredness of whether God could really be trusted with this desire. So, when we set out last October for Oregon and thought we’d only be there for a few weeks, we found that her desire was waiting. There was a purpose for our visit to Oregon and as we were there serving for four months she was able to attend an art class at Sisters High School for a semester. She met precious friends and continues to nurture those friendships virtually, knowing well, that we will be back in Oregon this December.
2. Our son is a tech head and being ten, doesn’t fully understand the costs of things. Regardless, he loves electronics and expressed a desire for an iPod, a few months prior to Christmas. We had really just gotten our feet wet in this whole traveling thing and didn’t have a cent to our name. Christmas was going to be a rough one. We let him know the reality of our situation and he graciously let it go. Then about a week before, a friend who was cleaning house offered her iPod 1st generation. When our son opened his only Christmas present, his eyes nearly popped out of his head and he was elated to find his desire was heard.
Wisdom bestows Well-being (rest) and faith is about trust, no matter what. Even in times when things didn’t work out as we had hoped and our faith was tested, God was and continues to be faithful.
It’s good for us to remember to rest in this faithfulness. For it is in His faithfulness that we find our burdens are easy and our worries no more. It is in His faithfulness that we find rest.